true love

I am sad because I miss you, I miss you because I love you, I love you because I now know what love truly is.  What I want most in the world is what is good and right for you.  I want what is best for you, God's best for you; even if it means being without me (my body and soul shutter at the thought, but this is true).  I want you to live a life that is honoring and glorifying to God, using the gifts that He has blessed you with, and pursuing the passions He has put in your heart.  I see us doing this together, along side one another, building each other up, encouraging each other, challenging each other, and throughout all of these things, loving each other--with the love that God has blessed us with and calls us to, a love that "forgets itself and saves the other from death" (paraphrase for Works of Love, S.K.).

I have hope.  This hope is not of my own, but from the Lord who saves.  Through His power, strength, and deep love for me (even me a sinner, deserving of death), "I cry out to God Most High, to God who performs all things for me.  He shall send from heaven and save me; He reproaches the one who would swallow me up.  Selah God shall send forth His mercy and His truth" to which I cling--may I not be moved (Psa 57: 2 - 3).  My hope is not in my love, even though I do hope for him, but ultimately my hope is in the creator and savior of the universe--I know no matter what trials may come, He is in me, in my heart, steadfast to the end of this life.  In the midst of this trial, I recall past tribulation, pain, and loss and remember how Christ has been there through it all and had recovered my soul and continued to teach, mold, and grow in me, strengthening my relationship with Him.

I feel like I am in a bit of a holding pattern, waiting on God, waiting for Him to speak to you, waiting for you to respond to me, but maybe He is still waiting on me, waiting to teach me more, waiting to show me more of who He wants me to be?  Lord, whatever the case, I pray that you would continue what you are doing in both my and my love's hearts and give us Your divine power and strength to pursue You and give us ears to hear what You want to teach us.  May we continue to grow in Your love, through which, loving each other would result.  Your will be done.